Monday, October 4, 2010

Perhaps I'm better off not to sleep?

Beautiful Images of Papou with his grandchildren

We lost my father-in-law on Friday, to that demon known as cancer. I can only describe the feelings that followed as mixed. In one minute we felt a sense of relief, and in the very next instant, sadness. I sat at my in-law's house and I watched, as one by one each family member and friend shuffled in to pay their respects. Then something happened. My phone rang. A patient, so overjoyed, I could feel it. She was pregnant. And then... like some miracle... another called. She too, was expecting.
As clich├ęd as it is, I was watching this unfold before my eyes. One life ends and another life begins.

With all the heightened emotions running about in this mind of mine, I have to say, I'm afraid to sleep. I'm not kidding. I have dreamt every night since this that I am pregnant! I type this with a smirk because, for those of you who know me understand that this is not at the top of my list right now. It's a running joke, mostly by those who think they are funny. We will have more children for sure, in the near future, but not right now. According to dream analysis, dreaming of birth signals new beginning and new starts - funny that.

Spring has kicked in and according to Chinese Medicine, this is the time that the Liver energy is in full swing. Emotions and physical health are intimately connected and the liver is responsible for spreading qi, blood and nutrients around the body. Heightened emotions - specifically grief and sadness, will directly affect the Liver. If such emotions are not properly resolved it may lead to all sorts of complaints and illness (like dreaming - interesting that!). It may mean that the liver can't do it's job properly, and so other organs miss out on what they need. As a result, all body systems are affected. I know dreaming isn't an illness, and seems innocent enough. It is when dreams continue to disrupt sleep over a period of time that the body will begin to suffer. Not having a restful nights sleep will lead to fatigue and other health issues. Long term fatigue will for sure affect all body systems, including fertility.

So the aim in this household, especially now that it is spring, is that we take on these emotions and we deal with them properly. We don't tuck them away to be dealt with another day, we allow our bodies to fully feel what we are experiencing each minute. It may be something you aren't used to doing, but let me tell you, it is so important for your health, your fertility and your mind body connection.


  1. oh lovely, you know my heart and thoughts are with you both right now. I truly feel so much for you both. I believe let it all go. Let those emotions control your bodies. Cry when you have to. Laugh when you need to. There is no need for strength. And always know I am here.

    love xx

  2. So sorry to read this Nat xxx Take care.

  3. So sorry for your loss Nat. My condolences to you & your family xx

  4. So sorry to hear that you lost your Father in Law Nat, may he rest in peace.

  5. Oh Nat, I have been thinking of you lately. Hope you and your family are OK. xxxx

  6. so sorry to hear the loss of your father in-law.I too have lost my dear Father in-law 3 mths ago to this terrible disease,so i deeply understand....i wanted to also say i love reading your post and your blog ..your always welcome to pop over and visit me as well anytime :) xx

  7. Dear Nat, I am so sorry to come to read this post so late. I am so sad for you, your father-in-law looked like a beautiful man. Those two photos say so much.

    Thinking of you at such a sad, sad time.

    Lots of love,


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